{"id":92561,"date":"2022-12-11T10:29:00","date_gmt":"2022-12-11T09:29:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/goingapp.pl\/more\/?p=92561"},"modified":"2024-03-11T12:40:02","modified_gmt":"2024-03-11T11:40:02","slug":"rodzinne-swieta-kamil-bloch-o-samotnosci-narcyza","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/goingapp.pl\/more\/rodzinne-swieta-kamil-bloch-o-samotnosci-narcyza\/","title":{"rendered":"Rodzinne \u015bwi\u0119ta. Kamil B\u0142och o samotno\u015bci narcyza"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<h3 class=\"wp-block-heading\">Jeden z moich przyjaci\u00f3\u0142 co roku bardzo si\u0119 cieszy na grudniowe \u015awi\u0119ta. Co roku zaskakuje mnie ten jego entuzjazm. Gdy i tym razem w po\u0142owie listopada m\u00f3wi\u0142, \u017ce ju\u017c si\u0119 nie mo\u017ce doczeka\u0107 nadchodz\u0105cych Krismes, znowu by\u0142em zaskoczony. <\/h3>\n\n\n\n<p>S\u0142ucha\u0142em jak opowiada o wieczorach pod kocem, przy pi\u0119knych \u015bwiate\u0142kach, z ksi\u0105\u017ck\u0105 i filmami. Zastanawia\u0142em si\u0119, dlaczego ja wobec jego rado\u015bci jestem taki zgorzknia\u0142y.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:20px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"instagram-media\" data-instgrm-permalink=\"https:\/\/www.instagram.com\/p\/CZGxsacOxnD\/?utm_source=ig_embed&amp;utm_campaign=loading\" data-instgrm-version=\"14\" style=\" background:#FFF; border:0; border-radius:3px; box-shadow:0 0 1px 0 rgba(0,0,0,0.5),0 1px 10px 0 rgba(0,0,0,0.15); margin: 1px; max-width:540px; min-width:326px; padding:0; width:99.375%; width:-webkit-calc(100% - 2px); width:calc(100% - 2px);\"><div style=\"padding:16px;\"> <a href=\"https:\/\/www.instagram.com\/p\/CZGxsacOxnD\/?utm_source=ig_embed&amp;utm_campaign=loading\" style=\" background:#FFFFFF; line-height:0; padding:0 0; text-align:center; text-decoration:none; width:100%;\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\"> <div style=\" display: flex; flex-direction: row; align-items: center;\"> <div style=\"background-color: #F4F4F4; 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border-bottom: 2px solid transparent; transform: translateX(16px) translateY(-4px) rotate(30deg)\"><\/div><\/div><div style=\"margin-left: auto;\"> <div style=\" width: 0px; border-top: 8px solid #F4F4F4; border-right: 8px solid transparent; transform: translateY(16px);\"><\/div> <div style=\" background-color: #F4F4F4; flex-grow: 0; height: 12px; width: 16px; transform: translateY(-4px);\"><\/div> <div style=\" width: 0; height: 0; border-top: 8px solid #F4F4F4; border-left: 8px solid transparent; transform: translateY(-4px) translateX(8px);\"><\/div><\/div><\/div> <div style=\"display: flex; flex-direction: column; flex-grow: 1; justify-content: center; margin-bottom: 24px;\"> <div style=\" background-color: #F4F4F4; border-radius: 4px; flex-grow: 0; height: 14px; margin-bottom: 6px; width: 224px;\"><\/div> <div style=\" background-color: #F4F4F4; border-radius: 4px; flex-grow: 0; height: 14px; width: 144px;\"><\/div><\/div><\/a><p style=\" color:#c9c8cd; font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; line-height:17px; margin-bottom:0; margin-top:8px; overflow:hidden; padding:8px 0 7px; text-align:center; text-overflow:ellipsis; white-space:nowrap;\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.instagram.com\/p\/CZGxsacOxnD\/?utm_source=ig_embed&amp;utm_campaign=loading\" style=\" color:#c9c8cd; font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; font-style:normal; font-weight:normal; line-height:17px; text-decoration:none;\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">A post shared by Grupa Performatywna Ch\u0142opaki (@grupaperformatywnachlopaki)<\/a><\/p><\/div><\/blockquote> <script async=\"\" src=\"\/\/www.instagram.com\/embed.js\"><\/script>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:20px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>Przecie\u017c kiedy ju\u017c wyobra\u017cam sobie te \u015bwiate\u0142ka, to ciep\u0142o, otulaj\u0105ce d\u017awi\u0119ki jakiej\u015b \u0142agodnej muzyki i czas z chwil\u0105 na robienie niczego, to bardzo mi si\u0119 to podoba. A jednak pierwszym odruchem jest ch\u0142odny dystans i id\u0105ca za nim racjonalizacja: \u015awi\u0119ta s\u0105 konsumpcjonistyczne, naiwne i nieszczere. Kiedy zastanowi\u0142em si\u0119 g\u0142\u0119biej, to zobaczy\u0142em, \u017ce wobec \u015awi\u0105t jest we mnie wiele trudnych emocji.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Jest t\u0119sknota. T\u0119sknota dziecka za dzieci\u0119c\u0105 beztrosk\u0105. T\u0119sknota za atmosfer\u0105 \u015awi\u0105t, kt\u00f3r\u0105 pami\u0119tam z dzieci\u0144stwa. T\u0119sknota za prostot\u0105 relacji, \u017ce rodzice, dziadkowie, ciotka s\u0105 dla mnie bardzo wa\u017cni, w\u0142a\u015bciwie s\u0105 ca\u0142ym moim \u015bwiatem. T\u0119sknota za prostot\u0105 oczekiwania na <a href=\"https:\/\/goingapp.pl\/polecamy\/prezent-na-swieta\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noreferrer noopener\">prezent<\/a> i rado\u015bci z otrzymania go.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:20px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<h4 class=\"wp-block-heading\">Jest \u017cal i z\u0142o\u015b\u0107 wobec braku tej beztroski, atmosfery i prostoty.<\/h4>\n\n\n\n<p>Jest frustracja i znudzenie, \u017ce w\u0142a\u015bciwie ju\u017c od kilkunastu lat rodzinna Wigilia wi\u0105\u017ce si\u0119 dla mnie z wieloma trudnymi emocjami.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Jest z\u0142o\u015b\u0107, \u017ce kiedy wracam do rodziny, to musz\u0119 uzbroi\u0107 si\u0119 w dodatkow\u0105 cierpliwo\u015b\u0107 wobec przekraczania moich granic i nieszanowania moich potrzeb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Jest z\u0142o\u015b\u0107, \u017ce maj\u0105 w g\u0142owach pewien obraz mnie, do kt\u00f3rego aktualny ja, ju\u017c dawno nie pasuj\u0119.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Jest presja, \u017ce musz\u0119 dopasowa\u0107&nbsp;si\u0119 do tego obrazu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Jest ich rozczarowanie, kiedy tak si\u0119 nie dzieje.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Jest wstyd i l\u0119k, \u017ceby im powiedzie\u0107, \u017ce za nimi t\u0119skni\u0119, i \u017ce trudno mi z nimi, i \u017ce chcia\u0142bym umie\u0107 inaczej. Jest wstyd i l\u0119k, \u017ceby im powiedzie\u0107, \u017ce ich kocham.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Jest poczucie zobowi\u0105zania, \u017ce skoro \u015awi\u0119ta, to z rodzin\u0105.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I to wewn\u0119trzne gnanie, \u017ce w tym roku nie, \u017ce w tym roku z kim innym, gdzie indziej.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Jest zm\u0119czenie. Sob\u0105. \u017be od kilkunastu ju\u017c lat, co roku mam te same \u015bwi\u0105teczne dramy i dylematy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:20px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"instagram-media\" data-instgrm-captioned=\"\" data-instgrm-permalink=\"https:\/\/www.instagram.com\/p\/CXTLuEULaPI\/?utm_source=ig_embed&amp;utm_campaign=loading\" data-instgrm-version=\"14\" style=\" background:#FFF; border:0; border-radius:3px; box-shadow:0 0 1px 0 rgba(0,0,0,0.5),0 1px 10px 0 rgba(0,0,0,0.15); margin: 1px; max-width:540px; min-width:326px; padding:0; width:99.375%; width:-webkit-calc(100% - 2px); width:calc(100% - 2px);\"><div style=\"padding:16px;\"> <a href=\"https:\/\/www.instagram.com\/p\/CXTLuEULaPI\/?utm_source=ig_embed&amp;utm_campaign=loading\" style=\" background:#FFFFFF; line-height:0; padding:0 0; text-align:center; text-decoration:none; width:100%;\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\"> <div style=\" display: flex; flex-direction: row; 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border-bottom: 2px solid transparent; transform: translateX(16px) translateY(-4px) rotate(30deg)\"><\/div><\/div><div style=\"margin-left: auto;\"> <div style=\" width: 0px; border-top: 8px solid #F4F4F4; border-right: 8px solid transparent; transform: translateY(16px);\"><\/div> <div style=\" background-color: #F4F4F4; flex-grow: 0; height: 12px; width: 16px; transform: translateY(-4px);\"><\/div> <div style=\" width: 0; height: 0; border-top: 8px solid #F4F4F4; border-left: 8px solid transparent; transform: translateY(-4px) translateX(8px);\"><\/div><\/div><\/div> <div style=\"display: flex; flex-direction: column; flex-grow: 1; justify-content: center; margin-bottom: 24px;\"> <div style=\" background-color: #F4F4F4; border-radius: 4px; flex-grow: 0; height: 14px; margin-bottom: 6px; width: 224px;\"><\/div> <div style=\" background-color: #F4F4F4; border-radius: 4px; flex-grow: 0; height: 14px; width: 144px;\"><\/div><\/div><\/a><p style=\" color:#c9c8cd; font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; line-height:17px; margin-bottom:0; margin-top:8px; overflow:hidden; padding:8px 0 7px; text-align:center; text-overflow:ellipsis; white-space:nowrap;\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.instagram.com\/p\/CXTLuEULaPI\/?utm_source=ig_embed&amp;utm_campaign=loading\" style=\" color:#c9c8cd; font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; font-style:normal; font-weight:normal; line-height:17px; text-decoration:none;\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">A post shared by Grupa Performatywna Ch\u0142opaki (@grupaperformatywnachlopaki)<\/a><\/p><\/div><\/blockquote> <script async=\"\" src=\"\/\/www.instagram.com\/embed.js\"><\/script>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:20px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<h3 class=\"wp-block-heading\">M\u0119\u017cczyzna by\u0142 chory i le\u017ca\u0142 w \u0142\u00f3\u017ceczku\u2026<\/h3>\n\n\n\n<p>Ostatnio chorowa\u0142em. Ca\u0142y tydzie\u0144 na prze\u0142omie listopada i grudnia przesiedzia\u0142em w domu, daj\u0105c odpoczynek i regeneracj\u0119 cia\u0142u, kt\u00f3re potrzebowa\u0142o si\u0119 zatrzyma\u0107 po intensywnych miesi\u0105cach pracy. Zakatarzony nos i zatykaj\u0105ce si\u0119 zatoki wystarczy\u0142y, \u017ceby odczuwa\u0107 spory dyskomfort choroby. A os\u0142abienie i zdrowy rozs\u0105dek pilnowa\u0142y, \u017cebym nie pr\u00f3bowa\u0142 nadrabia\u0107 pracy, kt\u00f3r\u0105 na up\u0142ywaj\u0105cy z chorob\u0105 tydzie\u0144 mia\u0142em zaplanowan\u0105. Le\u017ca\u0142em wi\u0119c w swoim mieszkaniu, smarka\u0142em i nadrabia\u0142em r\u00f3\u017cne zaleg\u0142o\u015bci w ogl\u0105daniu internetu. Czu\u0142em coraz wi\u0119cej rado\u015bci i wdzi\u0119czno\u015bci do siebie, \u017ce uszanowa\u0142em t\u0119 chorob\u0119 i nie pr\u00f3buj\u0119 oszukiwa\u0107, pracuj\u0105c. Cieszy\u0142em si\u0119 odpoczynkiem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Trzeciego dnia chorowania obudzi\u0142em si\u0119 i poczu\u0142em rozpacz. Le\u017ca\u0142em na \u0142\u00f3\u017cku, sam jeden, jak rozbitek na bezludnej wyspie, po\u015brodku samotnego oceanu. I przegl\u0105daj\u0105c si\u0119 w pustce surowych, bia\u0142ych \u015bcian, gapi\u0142em si\u0119 w okno i p\u0142aka\u0142em, jako najbardziej samotny cz\u0142owiek na \u015bwiecie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:20px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"instagram-media\" data-instgrm-captioned=\"\" data-instgrm-permalink=\"https:\/\/www.instagram.com\/p\/CZlxPqOup1s\/?utm_source=ig_embed&amp;utm_campaign=loading\" data-instgrm-version=\"14\" style=\" background:#FFF; border:0; border-radius:3px; box-shadow:0 0 1px 0 rgba(0,0,0,0.5),0 1px 10px 0 rgba(0,0,0,0.15); margin: 1px; max-width:540px; min-width:326px; padding:0; width:99.375%; width:-webkit-calc(100% - 2px); width:calc(100% - 2px);\"><div style=\"padding:16px;\"> <a href=\"https:\/\/www.instagram.com\/p\/CZlxPqOup1s\/?utm_source=ig_embed&amp;utm_campaign=loading\" style=\" background:#FFFFFF; line-height:0; padding:0 0; text-align:center; text-decoration:none; width:100%;\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\"> <div style=\" display: flex; flex-direction: row; align-items: center;\"> <div style=\"background-color: #F4F4F4; border-radius: 50%; flex-grow: 0; height: 40px; margin-right: 14px; width: 40px;\"><\/div> <div style=\"display: flex; flex-direction: column; flex-grow: 1; justify-content: center;\"> <div style=\" background-color: #F4F4F4; border-radius: 4px; flex-grow: 0; height: 14px; margin-bottom: 6px; width: 100px;\"><\/div> <div style=\" background-color: #F4F4F4; border-radius: 4px; flex-grow: 0; height: 14px; width: 60px;\"><\/div><\/div><\/div><div style=\"padding: 19% 0;\"><\/div> <div style=\"display:block; height:50px; margin:0 auto 12px; width:50px;\"><svg width=\"50px\" height=\"50px\" viewBox=\"0 0 60 60\" version=\"1.1\" xmlns=\"https:\/\/www.w3.org\/2000\/svg\" xmlns:xlink=\"https:\/\/www.w3.org\/1999\/xlink\"><g stroke=\"none\" stroke-width=\"1\" fill=\"none\" fill-rule=\"evenodd\"><g transform=\"translate(-511.000000, -20.000000)\" fill=\"#000000\"><g><path d=\"M556.869,30.41 C554.814,30.41 553.148,32.076 553.148,34.131 C553.148,36.186 554.814,37.852 556.869,37.852 C558.924,37.852 560.59,36.186 560.59,34.131 C560.59,32.076 558.924,30.41 556.869,30.41 M541,60.657 C535.114,60.657 530.342,55.887 530.342,50 C530.342,44.114 535.114,39.342 541,39.342 C546.887,39.342 551.658,44.114 551.658,50 C551.658,55.887 546.887,60.657 541,60.657 M541,33.886 C532.1,33.886 524.886,41.1 524.886,50 C524.886,58.899 532.1,66.113 541,66.113 C549.9,66.113 557.115,58.899 557.115,50 C557.115,41.1 549.9,33.886 541,33.886 M565.378,62.101 C565.244,65.022 564.756,66.606 564.346,67.663 C563.803,69.06 563.154,70.057 562.106,71.106 C561.058,72.155 560.06,72.803 558.662,73.347 C557.607,73.757 556.021,74.244 553.102,74.378 C549.944,74.521 548.997,74.552 541,74.552 C533.003,74.552 532.056,74.521 528.898,74.378 C525.979,74.244 524.393,73.757 523.338,73.347 C521.94,72.803 520.942,72.155 519.894,71.106 C518.846,70.057 518.197,69.06 517.654,67.663 C517.244,66.606 516.755,65.022 516.623,62.101 C516.479,58.943 516.448,57.996 516.448,50 C516.448,42.003 516.479,41.056 516.623,37.899 C516.755,34.978 517.244,33.391 517.654,32.338 C518.197,30.938 518.846,29.942 519.894,28.894 C520.942,27.846 521.94,27.196 523.338,26.654 C524.393,26.244 525.979,25.756 528.898,25.623 C532.057,25.479 533.004,25.448 541,25.448 C548.997,25.448 549.943,25.479 553.102,25.623 C556.021,25.756 557.607,26.244 558.662,26.654 C560.06,27.196 561.058,27.846 562.106,28.894 C563.154,29.942 563.803,30.938 564.346,32.338 C564.756,33.391 565.244,34.978 565.378,37.899 C565.522,41.056 565.552,42.003 565.552,50 C565.552,57.996 565.522,58.943 565.378,62.101 M570.82,37.631 C570.674,34.438 570.167,32.258 569.425,30.349 C568.659,28.377 567.633,26.702 565.965,25.035 C564.297,23.368 562.623,22.342 560.652,21.575 C558.743,20.834 556.562,20.326 553.369,20.18 C550.169,20.033 549.148,20 541,20 C532.853,20 531.831,20.033 528.631,20.18 C525.438,20.326 523.257,20.834 521.349,21.575 C519.376,22.342 517.703,23.368 516.035,25.035 C514.368,26.702 513.342,28.377 512.574,30.349 C511.834,32.258 511.326,34.438 511.181,37.631 C511.035,40.831 511,41.851 511,50 C511,58.147 511.035,59.17 511.181,62.369 C511.326,65.562 511.834,67.743 512.574,69.651 C513.342,71.625 514.368,73.296 516.035,74.965 C517.703,76.634 519.376,77.658 521.349,78.425 C523.257,79.167 525.438,79.673 528.631,79.82 C531.831,79.965 532.853,80.001 541,80.001 C549.148,80.001 550.169,79.965 553.369,79.82 C556.562,79.673 558.743,79.167 560.652,78.425 C562.623,77.658 564.297,76.634 565.965,74.965 C567.633,73.296 568.659,71.625 569.425,69.651 C570.167,67.743 570.674,65.562 570.82,62.369 C570.966,59.17 571,58.147 571,50 C571,41.851 570.966,40.831 570.82,37.631\"><\/path><\/g><\/g><\/g><\/svg><\/div><div style=\"padding-top: 8px;\"> <div style=\" color:#3897f0; 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border-bottom: 2px solid transparent; transform: translateX(16px) translateY(-4px) rotate(30deg)\"><\/div><\/div><div style=\"margin-left: auto;\"> <div style=\" width: 0px; border-top: 8px solid #F4F4F4; border-right: 8px solid transparent; transform: translateY(16px);\"><\/div> <div style=\" background-color: #F4F4F4; flex-grow: 0; height: 12px; width: 16px; transform: translateY(-4px);\"><\/div> <div style=\" width: 0; height: 0; border-top: 8px solid #F4F4F4; border-left: 8px solid transparent; transform: translateY(-4px) translateX(8px);\"><\/div><\/div><\/div> <div style=\"display: flex; flex-direction: column; flex-grow: 1; justify-content: center; margin-bottom: 24px;\"> <div style=\" background-color: #F4F4F4; border-radius: 4px; flex-grow: 0; height: 14px; margin-bottom: 6px; width: 224px;\"><\/div> <div style=\" background-color: #F4F4F4; border-radius: 4px; flex-grow: 0; height: 14px; width: 144px;\"><\/div><\/div><\/a><p style=\" color:#c9c8cd; font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; line-height:17px; margin-bottom:0; margin-top:8px; overflow:hidden; padding:8px 0 7px; text-align:center; text-overflow:ellipsis; white-space:nowrap;\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.instagram.com\/p\/CZlxPqOup1s\/?utm_source=ig_embed&amp;utm_campaign=loading\" style=\" color:#c9c8cd; font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; font-style:normal; font-weight:normal; line-height:17px; text-decoration:none;\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">A post shared by Grupa Performatywna Ch\u0142opaki (@grupaperformatywnachlopaki)<\/a><\/p><\/div><\/blockquote> <script async=\"\" src=\"\/\/www.instagram.com\/embed.js\"><\/script>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:20px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>U\u015bwiadomi\u0142em sobie, \u017ce \u017ceby ktokolwiek dowiedzia\u0142 si\u0119 o mojej chorobie, musz\u0119 do tego kogokolwiek zadzwoni\u0107 i mu o tym powiedzie\u0107, a \u017ceby dosta\u0107 uwag\u0119 i opiek\u0119, potrzebuj\u0119 po nie si\u0119gn\u0105\u0107. Czu\u0142em si\u0119 bardzo samotny. Gdzie s\u0105 te tabuny przyjaci\u00f3\u0142 i znajomych, kt\u00f3rzy spiesz\u0105 z pocieszeniami, odwiedzinami, s\u0142oikami z domowym roso\u0142kiem wega\u0144skim i nar\u0119czami chorobowych pomara\u0144czy?&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ogl\u0105da\u0142em w wyobra\u017ani domy moich najbli\u017cszych, kt\u00f3rzy_re nie mieszkaj\u0105 sami_e. Dziel\u0105 swoj\u0105 przestrze\u0144 z najbli\u017cszymi osobami. Z osobami, kt\u00f3re mog\u0105 dostrzec ich smutek, chorob\u0119 i zm\u0119czenie. Kt\u00f3re, nie musz\u0105c pyta\u0107 o nic, przynios\u0105 ciep\u0142y kubek ulubionej herbaty. Albo po prostu s\u0105 obok, i zajmuj\u0105c si\u0119 swoimi sprawami, sam\u0105 swoj\u0105 obecno\u015bci\u0105 przynosz\u0105 ukojenie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:20px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<h4 class=\"wp-block-heading\">Zazdro\u015bci\u0142em im. I czu\u0142em si\u0119 jeszcze bardziej samotny.<\/h4>\n\n\n\n<p>T\u0119skni\u0142em za swoj\u0105 ukochan\u0105 osob\u0105, kt\u00f3ra odprawia\u0142aby nade mn\u0105 te wszystkie rytua\u0142y opieki. Kt\u00f3ra w chwili, kiedy jest mi tak \u017ale, zwolni\u0142aby mnie na chwil\u0119 z pe\u0142nej odpowiedzialno\u015bci za \u017cycie. Kt\u00f3ra my\u015bla\u0142aby o mnie szczeg\u00f3lnie tego dnia w swojej pracy. I kt\u00f3ra po powrocie powiedzia\u0142aby t\u0119 jedn\u0105 konkretn\u0105 rzecz, o kt\u00f3rej wiemy, \u017ce mnie strasznie roz\u015bmieszy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:20px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"instagram-media\" data-instgrm-captioned=\"\" data-instgrm-permalink=\"https:\/\/www.instagram.com\/p\/CYvvJscIlnY\/?utm_source=ig_embed&amp;utm_campaign=loading\" data-instgrm-version=\"14\" style=\" background:#FFF; border:0; border-radius:3px; box-shadow:0 0 1px 0 rgba(0,0,0,0.5),0 1px 10px 0 rgba(0,0,0,0.15); margin: 1px; max-width:540px; min-width:326px; padding:0; width:99.375%; width:-webkit-calc(100% - 2px); width:calc(100% - 2px);\"><div style=\"padding:16px;\"> <a href=\"https:\/\/www.instagram.com\/p\/CYvvJscIlnY\/?utm_source=ig_embed&amp;utm_campaign=loading\" style=\" background:#FFFFFF; line-height:0; padding:0 0; text-align:center; text-decoration:none; width:100%;\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\"> <div style=\" display: flex; 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border-bottom: 2px solid transparent; transform: translateX(16px) translateY(-4px) rotate(30deg)\"><\/div><\/div><div style=\"margin-left: auto;\"> <div style=\" width: 0px; border-top: 8px solid #F4F4F4; border-right: 8px solid transparent; transform: translateY(16px);\"><\/div> <div style=\" background-color: #F4F4F4; flex-grow: 0; height: 12px; width: 16px; transform: translateY(-4px);\"><\/div> <div style=\" width: 0; height: 0; border-top: 8px solid #F4F4F4; border-left: 8px solid transparent; transform: translateY(-4px) translateX(8px);\"><\/div><\/div><\/div> <div style=\"display: flex; flex-direction: column; flex-grow: 1; justify-content: center; margin-bottom: 24px;\"> <div style=\" background-color: #F4F4F4; border-radius: 4px; flex-grow: 0; height: 14px; margin-bottom: 6px; width: 224px;\"><\/div> <div style=\" background-color: #F4F4F4; border-radius: 4px; flex-grow: 0; height: 14px; width: 144px;\"><\/div><\/div><\/a><p style=\" color:#c9c8cd; font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; line-height:17px; margin-bottom:0; margin-top:8px; overflow:hidden; padding:8px 0 7px; text-align:center; text-overflow:ellipsis; white-space:nowrap;\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.instagram.com\/p\/CYvvJscIlnY\/?utm_source=ig_embed&amp;utm_campaign=loading\" style=\" color:#c9c8cd; font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; font-style:normal; font-weight:normal; line-height:17px; text-decoration:none;\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">A post shared by Grupa Performatywna Ch\u0142opaki (@grupaperformatywnachlopaki)<\/a><\/p><\/div><\/blockquote> <script async=\"\" src=\"\/\/www.instagram.com\/embed.js\"><\/script>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:20px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>U\u015bwiadomi\u0142em sobie te\u017c, \u017ce nie jestem zapraszaj\u0105cy. W miejscu, w kt\u00f3rym mieszkam ju\u017c od kilku miesi\u0119cy, nie urz\u0105dzi\u0142em sobie przestrzeni, do kt\u00f3rej chcia\u0142bym zaprasza\u0107 znajomych. Tkwi\u0119 w jakim\u015b quasi przeprowadzkowym trybie, bo sytuacja z w\u0142a\u015bcicielem nie jest do ko\u0144ca jasna. Sam nie wiem, czy tu gdzie jestem mi si\u0119 podoba, czy mi si\u0119 nie podoba.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I czu\u0142em si\u0119 winny. I czu\u0142em jak za sw\u00f3j stan jestem coraz bardziej odpowiedzialny. Wi\u0119c p\u0142aka\u0142em. Bo by\u0142em najbardziej samotny na \u015bwiecie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:20px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<h3 class=\"wp-block-heading\">Samotno\u015b\u0107 narcyza&nbsp;<\/h3>\n\n\n\n<p>M\u00f3j narcyzm sprawia, \u017ce uwielbiam si\u0119 sobie przygl\u0105da\u0107, szczeg\u00f3lnie wn\u0119trzu. Lubi\u0119 dzieli\u0107 si\u0119 tym ze \u015bwiatem \u2013 co mi si\u0119 przydarzy\u0142o, co nowego odkry\u0142em na sw\u00f3j temat, z czego jestem dumny. Ale jest te\u017c druga strona medalu. Kiedy pope\u0142ni\u0119 b\u0142\u0105d, zrobi\u0119 jakie\u015b przekroczenie wobec kogo\u015b lub siebie&nbsp;\u2013&nbsp;czuj\u0119 do siebie obrzydzenie i przyt\u0142aczaj\u0105ce poczucie winy. Czasem to wr\u0119cz przypomina fizyczne md\u0142o\u015bci. Bo m\u00f3j narcyzm robi wszystko, by utrzyma\u0107 wizerunek mnie jako dobrego cz\u0142owieka. M\u00f3j narcyzm nie pozwala mi pope\u0142nia\u0107 b\u0142\u0119d\u00f3w, bo nie mog\u0119 okaza\u0107 si\u0119 z\u0142y.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Pop\u0142akuj\u0105c w swoim \u0142\u00f3\u017cku, po\u0142\u0105czy\u0142em kropki. Odrzucam bliskich. Mam problem z blisko\u015bci\u0105 w relacjach z osobami, na kt\u00f3rych mi zale\u017cy. Wyznaczam jak\u0105\u015b niewidzialn\u0105 granic\u0119. Bo nie mog\u0119 sobie pozwoli\u0107, by kto\u015b zobaczy\u0142 we mnie z\u0142ego cz\u0142owieka. I chocia\u017c nie wierz\u0119 w dobro i z\u0142o, to szybko potrafi\u0119 oceni\u0107, kiedy jestem z\u0142y. Gdy si\u0119 ob\u017ceram, gdy pope\u0142niam b\u0142\u0105d, gdy przekraczam czyje\u015b granice, gdy przekraczam swoje granice, gdy stosuj\u0119 przemoc, gdy stosuj\u0119 autoagresj\u0119, gdy zawodz\u0119 bliskich, gdy zawodz\u0119 obcych, gdy nie spe\u0142niam oczekiwa\u0144, gdy czuj\u0119 si\u0119 niewystarczaj\u0105cy, gdy musz\u0119 przeprosi\u0107, gdy uciekam od swoich emocji, gdy si\u0119 wym\u0105drzam, gdy nie uznaj\u0119 czyjego\u015b zdania, gdy mam si\u0119 za lepszego od innych, gdy zachwycam si\u0119 sob\u0105, gdy jestem bezradny, gdy nie s\u0142ucham siebie. Czyli z\u0142y jestem wtedy, kiedy po prostu jestem cz\u0142owiekiem. A \u017ceby by\u0107 nim w pe\u0142ni potrzebuj\u0119 zaakceptowa\u0107, \u017ce mog\u0119 by\u0107 cz\u0142owiekiem z\u0142ym.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:20px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"instagram-media\" data-instgrm-captioned=\"\" data-instgrm-permalink=\"https:\/\/www.instagram.com\/p\/CiANygWjlt1\/?utm_source=ig_embed&amp;utm_campaign=loading\" data-instgrm-version=\"14\" style=\" background:#FFF; border:0; border-radius:3px; box-shadow:0 0 1px 0 rgba(0,0,0,0.5),0 1px 10px 0 rgba(0,0,0,0.15); margin: 1px; max-width:540px; min-width:326px; padding:0; width:99.375%; width:-webkit-calc(100% - 2px); width:calc(100% - 2px);\"><div style=\"padding:16px;\"> <a href=\"https:\/\/www.instagram.com\/p\/CiANygWjlt1\/?utm_source=ig_embed&amp;utm_campaign=loading\" style=\" background:#FFFFFF; line-height:0; padding:0 0; text-align:center; text-decoration:none; width:100%;\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\"> <div style=\" display: flex; 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font-size:14px; line-height:17px; margin-bottom:0; margin-top:8px; overflow:hidden; padding:8px 0 7px; text-align:center; text-overflow:ellipsis; white-space:nowrap;\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.instagram.com\/p\/CiANygWjlt1\/?utm_source=ig_embed&amp;utm_campaign=loading\" style=\" color:#c9c8cd; font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; font-style:normal; font-weight:normal; line-height:17px; text-decoration:none;\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">A post shared by Grupa Performatywna Ch\u0142opaki (@grupaperformatywnachlopaki)<\/a><\/p><\/div><\/blockquote> <script async=\"\" src=\"\/\/www.instagram.com\/embed.js\"><\/script>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:20px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<h4 class=\"wp-block-heading\">Od kilku ju\u017c lat marzy mi si\u0119, by m\u00f3c organizowa\u0107 Wigili\u0119 w swoim w\u0142asnym Domu. <\/h4>\n\n\n\n<p>Domu przez du\u017ce D. Dom przez du\u017ce D to taki, kt\u00f3ry jest m\u00f3j w\u0142asny i taki, w kt\u00f3rym mieszkam ze swoj\u0105 ukochan\u0105 osob\u0105 i naszym zwierzakiem. Ten dom jest przez du\u017ce D, bo oznacza rodzin\u0119 i moje miejsce na ziemi. Odwiedzaj\u0105 nas w nim nasi przyjaciele, wpadaj\u0105 bliskie osoby, przyje\u017cd\u017ca rodzina &#8211; ta z krwi i ta z wyboru. Jest ciep\u0142o. Jeste\u015bmy bezpieczni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Zapraszam Ci\u0119 do pos\u0142uchania odcinka podcastu <em>Czu\u0142a M\u0119sko\u015b\u0107<\/em> Grupy Performatywnej Ch\u0142opaki, w kt\u00f3rym szerzej wraz z innymi Ch\u0142opakami opowiadamy o \u015awi\u0119tach i ambiwalentnych odczuciach z nimi zwi\u0105zanych.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:20px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<iframe style=\"border-radius:12px\" src=\"https:\/\/open.spotify.com\/embed\/episode\/4pF7s7iBbBIrPbt6ZTu6n6?utm_source=generator\" width=\"100%\" height=\"152\" frameborder=\"0\" allowfullscreen=\"\" allow=\"autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; fullscreen; picture-in-picture\" loading=\"lazy\"><\/iframe>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:20px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>Kamil B\u0142och<\/strong> &#8211; m\u0119\u017cczyzna queerowy, osoba tw\u00f3rcza; trener antyprzemocowy; wsp\u00f3\u0142tw\u00f3rca Grupy Performatywnej Ch\u0142opaki i Fundacji Czu\u0142ych M\u0119\u017cczyzn; wsp\u00f3\u0142tworzy i inicjuje kr\u0119gi m\u0119\u017cczyzn, dzia\u0142a na rzecz czu\u0142ej m\u0119sko\u015bci; aktor, re\u017cyser, poeta i piosenkopisarz; amator wolnych chwil i dobrego towarzystwa; \u017cywe srebro i sama rado\u015b\u0107<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:80px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<h3 class=\"has-text-align-center has-background wp-block-heading\" style=\"background-color:#feff05\"><a href=\"https:\/\/goingapp.pl\/more\/jestem-mezczyzna-nie-chce-krzywdzic-kamil-bloch-o-przemocy\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noreferrer noopener\">Przeczytaj te\u017c: jestem m\u0119\u017cczyzn\u0105, nie chc\u0119 krzywdzi\u0107<\/a><\/h3>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Jeden z moich przyjaci\u00f3\u0142 co roku bardzo si\u0119 cieszy na grudniowe \u015awi\u0119ta. Co roku zaskakuje mnie ten jego entuzjazm. Gdy i tym razem w po\u0142owie listopada m\u00f3wi\u0142, \u017ce ju\u017c si\u0119 nie mo\u017ce doczeka\u0107 nadchodz\u0105cych Krismes, znowu by\u0142em zaskoczony. S\u0142ucha\u0142em jak opowiada o wieczorach pod kocem, przy pi\u0119knych \u015bwiate\u0142kach, z ksi\u0105\u017ck\u0105 i filmami. 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